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ZZZZZ.....

It is amazing the things we take for granted.  For me, and Matt, sleep was something we took for granted right up until the moment our sweet girl jumped into our lives.

So it has been 7 1/2 years since we officially slept, real sleep.

When you do without for a couple of nights, normally, you know you need it.  You get grumpy.  Complain.  Make sure you get to bed early at the first chance you get.  All better.

This has been our first chance in years......years.

It's amazing that the world really has started spinning slower.  Really.  time is s.l.o.w.i.n.g down.
We smile more..... at each other.

Our house is ours again.  We go to bed.  When we want to.
We wake up...after 6:00 am.

We miss our nurses.  Tremendously.  But we love our home.

We were married just shy of five years before the sleep deprivation, only if you consider the two boys born before Ivey, then technically we were sleep deprived long before Ivey.  Finally we are well past the newlywed days, but we finally get to see what its like to live together with our children in our house like a real family.

And Miss Ivey, well, she loves waking up to the sounds of her parents talking....

Ivey is sleeping in her crib in our room but it is magical.

And... I owe the world to my friends who have ridden out the past few years of a momma hyped up on adrenaline with no sleep, stressed out and always afraid.  You tolerated and loved me.  You stood there at times it must have been hard.  I love you.  Especially my miranda, tasha, lowery, angie and mandy....you girls have seen the uglies.. I'm coming back, just a few more nights of this amazing sleep!
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