When Ivey was a baby, I literally had drawers and spaces in her closet labeled, everything had a space, a place. One special friend loved showing off Ivey's closet to newbies coming by for a visit. This level of organization mystified my friend. Secretly, I wanted to go back to haphazardness. Justifying why I did this is simple. At the time, I had friends helping me with my laundry, as were my mom and some night nurses. With so many people, I found it more efficient, for all of us, to label everything. No one had to search or guess where things belonged. This approach to find order has only amplified with time. I have come to accept that being Ivey's mom has brought out a controlling aspect in my personality. For the record, I have always found peace in order and organization. It could be described as controlling, maybe. Ivey ramped up my need for order. On her hard days, or in times leading up to what I know will be hard, my need for order raises it’s merciless head.
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Merry Christmas to you, as well!!!
Merry Christmas to you!
Shannon in Austin (avid reader, just a lurker most of the time :))
Much love,
Give Holiday Hugs to your precious Ivey.
Liz
I am so glad you have found a happy place. It is such a blessing to be comfortable and content; we are getting there...slowly but surely.
I hope to blogging more regularly again soon.
Happy New Year!
♥